just want happiness

22 May 1989
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Kiaora ( hi ) everyone, I'm 21 and from beautiful New Zealand :-).
I have major depressive disorder ( in other words..seriously bad depression ), anorexia which occasionally goes bulimicish but then back to barely eating and restricting for months, PTSD, borderline personality disorder and severe anxiety disorder. I feel so alone a lot of the time so I'm hoping I can meet people here who share my problems. I got diagnosed with anorexia in early 2007 which makes things worse because it's another horrible mental illness to battle on top of everything else that is so hard! I had had body issues / hatred for a long time before that though. Anyway, I'm trying to be more positive because being pessimistic never helps things, does it?!

I'm 49.7 - 50 kilos at the moment which is 109 to 110lbs. Height: 5'9' BMI: 16.2 Lowest BMI: 13.1 LW: 40 kg or 88 lbs. HW: too embarrassing! My highest bmi was 24 - puke!! GW: 49 kg by end of January GW2: 47 kg by the end of Feb and UGW: 46kg by the 10th of March.
Please message me. I'm so lonely coz all my friends from when I was at school have drifted away coz of me being so sick for so long.
Love and hugs to you all who are also battling mental illnesses